Do you know that feeling that “there is no I”?

• Without having people around me I feel like I don’t exist. deep loneliness.
• That it’s hard to decide what I want because there is no inner voice, and all the possibilities out there give me FOMO.
• That I can’t make big things happen. Anything that requires more than one step to accomplish seems unattainable.
• That things happen to me, they are out of my control, and I complain about it.
• That I seemingly learn from my experiences, but time passes and I remain the same, as if I learned nothing.

And you know the feeling that “there is I”?

• Feeling at ease, as if there’s always a loved one beside me wherever I go.
• That I know what I want, and that possibilities don’t interest me much unless my inner voice responds to one of them.
• That the thought of creating something big inspires me, and when I go for something then I take it in small steps in spite being full of excitement.
• Everything that happens stems from me and it makes me feel responsible.
• That I learn from my experiences, and every new thing I learn makes me act differently and achieve better results.

The most important thing for me right now in this life is “to have an I”, a sense of self, and today I also know how to go about it.

The sense of self is gradually composed or decomposed through the collection of interactions in which either there was an “I” involved, or there was not. The more interactions that involve an “I” – the general feeling is that there is more “I” in my life.

This “I” is a very special thing. The divine spark. A conscious awareness.

The thing that I do in order to bring the “I” into an interaction, is to take the impression inside to the place of my intuition, then I receive the inner response to that impression, and I adopt it in a way that changes worldview.

The part of connecting with the intuition is the part that may be elusive to those who begin the process of developing a sense of self.

I don’t know how to describe what I do when I use intuition, but I know what I don’t do: I don’t think, I don’t react automatically, I don’t turn to logic, nor to my values.

I can also say that inner noise can make me deaf to my intuition, so if I judge myself, discredit myself, underestimate, mistrust, or simply am overwhelmed by emotions and fears – I will not hear my intuition.

To hear the intuition I need to be in a state of serenity, and also treat what comes from within me with respect.